To My Best Friend!

So I was originally going to type this post on Decemeber 2nd (Seeing that it marked six months of being married to my awesome husband) but time just got out of hand. Before I knew it, it was 11pm. So here I am writing it today.. Late.. but I guess better late then never? (:

Dear Dee,

You are my very best friend! Each & every day I ask myself how I got so lucky to be married to such a wonderful man! You are good to me. No you're beyond good to me. & I am so happy and excited that I get to spend the rest of my life with you as well as being with you for all of eternity! I love you more than words can express. I love how I love you more and more each day! I also know you love me the same & I can tell that you do, by the way you look at me each & every day. I love how no matter what I know you will always be there for me. I love that when we get into an argument we can just totally start busting up laughing & realize how silly we are being. I love how you sing "I love my baby, baby, baby!" threw the phone when you call me to tell me you're on your way home from work. I love how we make up our own language & can just be ourselves together. I love how when we wake up in the morning you always wrap your arms around me, it makes me feel so secure & loved. I love how you ALWAYS know exactly what to say when I get stressed & overwhelmed with school & work & all the change that has recently happened. I love how when that happens & I freak out & do not want to cook or clean ever again you tell me it's okay & you take me out to eat instead. I know that you are going through a lot of stress too right now, with school & working 3 12 hour shifts every week. But you never fail to see how I am doing first. You listen to all my stress (Which I can imagine probably stresses you out more) & you talk me through it. I love how you have so much faith & understanding. Dee, you are such an amazing guy. I prayed all my life for someone life you. I am baffled that I got exactly what I wanted and more. I have a wonderful husband who loves me, husband who honors his priesthood, a husband who is caring, a husband who is my very best friend, a husband who sings & dances with me (Even though you think you suck.. but you don't), a husband who wants kids (& a husband that kids LOVE!), a husband that pushes me to be my very best, a husband who has the same goals as me, a husband who will be with me forever, a husband who doesn't give up on me, but works things out because that is the only way, & a husband who treats me like a princess! I am a lucky girl! I have so much I want to say.. but I have a hard time expressing myself sometimes.. so I just want to say Thank You Dee for being my very best friend & loving me a little more each & every day! I look forward to being with you for eternity!

Love,

Your wife (:

(Photo taken by: Belle Reve Photography)

Is change really necessary?

Accept... or not to Accept?

I find myself having a hard time accepting that things change constantly. Like recently both my cousin Ashley & Alex got married. Ashley got married on November 3. & Alex just got married November 17.. so Yesterday. & I can't help but think that it was just MY wedding. wasn't it just yesterday? No. It's been almost SIX months already. I remember when people would say "We have been married for 6 months now!" & I would think that was a long time.. but six months is NOT long at all. it almost feels like 6 days.. or 6 hours.. or maybe even 6 minutes in some cases. I don't know exactly what I'm trying to say, but I just mean that I feel like I just got married yesterday.. & now it's going on six months of being married. Not that it is bad obviously. haha I just mean that time flies by SO fast. It is crazy! & I think the point of this is about change. I always wish that time would move a little faster so I can be done with work.. or school.. or anything! When I should be cherishing each & every minute, because before I know it.. I will be 40!! & have a million kids! not that I don't want that... but like I have said in a lot of posts before, I miss a lot of moments from the past & now wish I could go back. & I can't go back. I think I get so frustrated with that. & It all goes back to that stupid 6 letter word.. Change! Oh how I hate hate hate that word. I hate everything about it. I hate how when I wake up it's a new day & constantly all day long things are CHANGING! I hate how I think a year will go by slowly... But then before I know it is already the next year. I hate how things cannot just simply stay the same. But I guess then what would be the point in living? How would anyone better themselves? How would we learn? How would we grow & strengthen our weaknesses? How would we have a chance to make choices? How would we try to become perfect like our savior Jesus Christ? ETC.
The answer: We couldn't do anything. If things weren't constantly changing.. we wouldn't need our Heavenly father or be apart of our Heavenly father's plan. We wouldn't improve on anything... We would just stay exactly the same. Never trying new things.. never moving. We definitely wouldn't learn anything if we stayed in the same spot every single day! If things didn't change we just couldn't learn. we would stay as innocent children forever. We would ALWAYS have our weaknesses.. because we don't have the opportunity to learn.. If things did not change... we could not make our own decisions. we would stay content & never moving. & Most importantly if we didn't have change... We wouldn't have the opportunity to learn about our heavenly father.. or Jesus Christ. The point of living here, is to learn & grow so we can return to live with them someday. But if there was not any change... that wouldn't be possible now would it? & Then it all goes back to, "What would be the point of living?" & the answer is... there would not be a point & if there was no such thing as "Change" we wouldn't be here.

I don't know if any of that made any sense.. but It makes sense to me & maybe I don't know how to put it into words.. But it definitely helps me to think that way.. That if there was not any change, what would be the point? & it helps me to realize that I am apart of my heavenly father's plan. & I know I can become perfect someday through my Savior Jesus Christ. Thinking this way also helps me to be thankful for Change. Because things are constantly changing, that means I'm constantly changing... meaning I am constantly learning,  growing, strengthening my weaknesses, bettering myself, & becoming closer to my goal here on earth: trying to become perfect like our Savior. So from now on I'm going to focus on the positive Change brings... not the negative. I will start right now by saying... I love change & I am going to be better at accepting it.

(Plus change is going to happen regardless of whether we want or not.. so why not embrace it instead of trying to fight it?)

Anyway.. I will now share a couple of things that have happened in the last two weeks:

Friday, November 2:

November 2nd is my birthday. So for my birthday I went to my cousin Ashley's Bridal shower. After the Bridal shower my amazing husband had a scavenger hunt ready for me. (A scavenger hunt to find my birthday presents). He wrote on 9 blue sticky notes. I got the first one in my birthday card he gave to me on the way home from my cousin's house. Each one had a clue on it & I had to go search the apartment for them. It was so much fun! I love my husband! He is so good to me! (Not because he gets me gifts, but because he loves me enough to make a scavenger hunt just for me!) Oh & he also made me breakfast that morning too!

After my scavenger hunt we went to Red Robin (& I got a free birthday dinner! because we go there a lot!) & we saw Wreck it Ralph after dinner! After the movie we had cake(: Which was an ice cream cake. I told Dee one time that I wanted an ice cream cake.. & he remember. Dee really does Listen to everything I say. I love him so much! I am a lucky girl.

1st wedding of November:

On Saturday November 3 my cousin Ashley & her now husband David got married in the beautiful St. George Temple. She looked Beautiful!

Some Projects:

So here are some things I have been working on lately:

I made a shadow box of our wedding day. Luckily my wonderful mom saved my bouquet & Dee's mom saved Dee's flower that he wore on his tux. (: I also made two ornaments for our future Christmas tree (which wont be this year because we are not getting one.. we are going to my mom's for Christmas this year.. so what's the point since we have not kids). One of them is the petals from one of my bridesmaid's bouquet & the other one is our wedding invitations cut into little strips! (:

Starting to feel like Fall:

So just recently the weather has started to feel like Fall. I absolutely love fall. But it is kind of weird how it is JUST now starting to feel like it... when it should be starting to feel like Winter since December is just around the corner.. oh well. This is St. George after all.

It's a bathroom mirror shot with the Mr. (:

(Oh by the way.. Recently I've started the habit of calling Dee "Mr" I think he likes it because He has been calling me "Mrs" lately. I love my husband! Oh & just so you know.. The Mr & I make a good team! We are good by ourselves... but together.. we are AWESOME! just so you know. & I couldn't think of a better person I'd want to be on a team with then my amazing Hubby.)

Merry Christmas to the Mr. & Mrs. (:

Well we decided probably a month ago that for our Christmas present we would get ourselves a new bed. So last Monday the 12 of November Dee & I bought ourselves a King Size bed. We absolutely love it! It cannot compare to our stinking Full size bed we jokingly tried to sleep on the last 5.5 months. haha Now we are just waiting for the lovely quilt my grandma is making us! I cannot wait until it is done. She showed me the part that she has done on my birthday... & It looked just absolutely perfect!

2nd wedding of November:

So my cousin Alex got married yesterday in a beautiful St. George temple as well! (Saturday November 17) I can't believe us cousins are all old enough to be married!!! 7 out of 32 cousins (On my dad's side) & 2 out of 21 cousins (on my mom's side) are married now! I cannot believe it! & 4 of us were married this year (2012) & the other 3 were married in 2010!!

Aren't they cute? Ashlan looked beautiful & they both looked so happy!

Congratulations to Ashley & David... & Alex & Ashlan! (: Have a happy journey to forever! Love you guys!

That's all for now!

"I always feel like somebody's watching me..."

"This is Halloween..." "I put a spell on you..." "Because this is thriller, thriller night..."

 Halloween song lyrics are stuck in my head!!! But I Love Halloween! So I do not care! Just so you know.. Halloween is my favorite holiday! I guess that is kind of weird... because most people's favorite holiday is like Thanksgiving, or Christmas... But I think it is my favorite holiday because as a kid, it reminded me I only had TWO more days until my birthday! It also sort of marks the start of all the other holidays to come. (: & I love the "Holiday season" because that means... BAKING! I love baking. & I'm excited because this year I have my own place (With my Hubby) & I can make whatever I want! No one can tell me what to do! ;)

So all day today I have been listening to Halloween party station on Pandora!

You should listen to it! You will really get into the Halloween spirit ;) (If there even is one?)

So as everyone knows (Well... people who I am close to) I love Socks! I have a great collection of Halloween socks... See?

On Friday October 26, 2012 our ward had a Halloween party, & we dressed up as Danny & Sandy from Grease:

(I am so glad I don't really have blonde hair... I look weird!!)

Dee & I also carved a pumpkin (:

Starting last Friday night through tonight, Dee and I watched Halloween movies!

Friday the 26th:

(Beetle Juice)

Saturday the 27th:

(Casper)

Sunday the 28th:

(The Haunted Mansion)

 Monday the 29th:

(Practical Magic)

Wednesday 31st:

(Hocus Pocus & Tim Burton's The Corpse Bride)

Today I made: 

Caramel Popcorn & Pumpkin Bars!

So I'm all about doing & starting traditions! I cannot help but want my future children to have a good childhood. & I think that having Traditions is part of having a good childhood (I mean we did not have that many traditions... but the few we had I can look back & say I'm glad we always did that) Kids like Routine.. Plus if you have Traditions you and your children can look forward to that tradition all year around.. the point of this is: I want to have traditions for Halloween. Like watching Halloween movies... Carving pumpkins together... Making caramel popcorn... Decorating Halloween sugar cookies.. & dressing up. I told Dee that once we are older & have a house... I want us to have an Annual Halloween party! Wouldn't that be fun? (: & since we aren't going to move ALL the time like I did as a kid.. we can do that (: Anyway here is a picture of the caramel popcorn:

It is sooo Yummy (:

I didn't get a picture of the pumpkin Bars ):

That is all for now!

Have a Happy Halloween! (:

Happy Anniversary?

ST. GEORGE: 

I love you. 

Well, yesterday marked one year since I moved to St. George! I'm so so so glad I moved to St. George. It's one of those decisions where you look back & think.. "What if I had not made that decision..." If I had not decided to move to St. George.. well I do not think I would be married to my amazing Husband right now. I wouldn't be working at the place I work at now (& honestly I love love love working there) I would not have started College... I would be working 14 hour days still... I would not have gotten to see my beautiful Niece grow through out the months. I wouldn't be as close to my sister. I wouldn't get to see my grandparents and aunts and uncles and cousins as much... I wouldn't have gotten to spend 7 months with my Uncle Corey, Aunt Susan, Alex, Lindsey, or Spencer. & it truly makes me so sad to even THINK if I had not made the decision to move here. I am so thankful for all of the things that are listed. There is no doubt that moving to St. George was the best decision I ever made. Good things came from it. & I am truly blessed! (I know, there I go again saying how blessed I am... But I really truly am! & I cannot just ignore that I am!)

Fist of all... before moving here I was a little nervous. I didn't want to move to St. George. I had a job. I had some family close to me.. I had friends.. & honestly I didn't want to move somewhere, where I wasn't sure I would even find a job. I was lacking faith. But days went by and I had this strong feeling that I needed to move away from California. I wasn't happy. & I felt as if I needed something... new! Instead of the same routine every day. I kept pushing that feeling away though, because like I said, I did not want to move to St. George. But every day it kept eating at me. So my mom told me to make a pros and cons list. So I did. I realized I could have a  lot of opportunities somewhere else. But still.. I was lacking faith. "What if I don't find a job" "what if I don't find a place to live" and so on. I was scared. But still I had the thought that I needed to move. So finally I opened the scriptures to 1 Nephi 17 (In the Book of Mormon)  (Follow along here ----------> http://www.lds.org/scriptures/bofm/1-ne/17?lang=eng ) Basically it talks about how Nephi's family leaves everything behind to go out into the wilderness. The lord told them, that he would provide means, strengthen, & nourish them if they keep the commandments and go and do what the lord commands.

After reading that I realized they had it a lot worse than I did. They left EVERYTHING behind. & all I had to do was leave my home town.. and my job behind. & they had SO much faith. I realized that the right decision would be to move, and if I moved the lord would provide means, strengthen me, and I would be okay. So I moved. & everything fell right into place. I asked my Aunt and Uncle if I could live with them... & soon after moving here I got hired at 2 places. (I had not even lived here a month yet) & I was set up on a date with my future husband two months after I moved here. I know I made the right decision!

I also know that living with my Uncle Corey, Aunt Susan, Alex, Lindsey, and Spencer was a blessing. They mean so much to me, and I am so glad I had that opportunity to live with them. Not only because of them being so welcoming and letting me intrude on their family time... but because I got to know them even more and gain a really good relationship with all of them. I consider them my second family. I consider Alex, Lindsey, and Spencer my brothers and sister. It's hard to express how thankful I am for them, and explain how much I love them... because I cannot even begin to say the right words. No word can even begin to explain! So I guess I will just say (& hope that they will understand how I truly feel).. Thank you for everything you guys have done for me. Thank you for always being there for me! I Am truly greatful!

Also I am so thankful that I get to live closer to my older sister Megan & my brother-in-law Justin & my niece Harper. (:

Here are some pictures from the last year:

Last Halloween                                                   Last Thanksgiving

Still Last Thanksgiving (:

 Last December(:

Last Christmas Eve/ Christmas day(:

My cute niece (:

 I visited my mom in January.

Lindsey and I (: We went on a lot of adventures..

 Dee and I started dating in December (:

Well that's all the pictures for now. haha
My Aunt & Uncle & Cousins moved after Dee and I got married. At first it didn't seem real.. It felt like they would be back any day. But then Reality sunk in and I realized a lot has changed. (Not that it is bad change) & I would be lying if I said it has been easy not having them here.. because it hasn't been easy. I miss all of them so much. & I'm having trouble accepting that that part of my life is over now. I wish time could have moved a tiny bit slower so I could have lived in that moment longer. But this is life.. & time is not on our side. ha It moves so fast. You either live in that moment or you look back & wish you had. I'm working on not saying "I wish it was this time already" or "I wish I was older" because before I know it... those things will happen. I'm not saying I'm perfect at that yet.. but I am trying to live in the moment (:

 

   

Home Sweet Home.

Home Sweet Home.

Like I said in the last post, we went to California for my brother Steffan's Baptism, and to Disneyland for my Grandparent's 50th Anniversary. While I love Disneyland, it is definitely good to be home finally. It was really fun just relaxing from the everyday routine and not stressing about everyday chores, school, school work, and work. It was also fun just spending time with my family! I love my family so much! I don't know where I would be without ANY of them. I'm not just talking about my immediate family, I also mean my extended family as well (So my aunts, Uncles, etc.) but especially my brothers and sisters(Including my "Long lost siblings" ;) you know who you are)! They are the best siblings anyone could ask for. We always have a good time & we are always there for one another. I am truly blessed.. I know I say that a lot. But I am. & I don't want to be selfish by not expressing how thankful I am & not expressing that I know I am blessed. I am also a lucky woman, because I have been so deeply blessed to be married to Dee. He is my best friend & everyday I can't help but love him more and more!! He makes me a better person & I just know I have been blessed. & I am so thankful!

Okay.. enough about going on & on about how blessed and thankful I am. ha. On the way to California Dee and I stopped in Reno so we could see the Reno Temple! We saw a lot of pretty Sights on the way to the Sacramento area! (:

The Highway we were on was called "The Extraterrestrial Highway... I don't know about you, but it made me think of the song: ET by Katy Perry. haha.

There was some random lake.. that was completely deserted.. haha it was kind of funny.

I love Taking pictures of everything!!

The Reno temple!

 Well the Baptism was really good. I had to speak (Because Steffan asked me to.. I was sooo Nervous. I don't like getting up in front of a lot of people & talking! It is kind of scary.. Just saying.) Anyway here is a picture of Steffan (Also Trace my cousin was baptized on the same day):

 

Look how cute they are!

So we spent time in the Sacramento area for a couple days (Friday afternoon-Sunday morning) and we just spent time together as a family!

Kayleeh loves to pose.. haha

Steffan being silly.... haha & Megan, Myself, and Miss Harper.

We went and saw Rissa... and Myself and Miss Harper(:

  They are silly!! haha (: (Steffan, Malachi, & Maddisen)

On Saturday after the Baptism, we had a chance to go see the Sacramento Temple (one of my favorites, Because in 2006, when I was a freshman in High school, I had the opportunity to be in the temple Production while the temple was being built. We got to Plant trees, and do a lot of helping out. We got to go through the temple before it was dedicated, and we got to put bootys on everyone that went through the temple one day!)

Here are some pictures:

 While we were at there we ran into my friend Jamey's Mom it was really nice seeing her.

I am so glad we had the chance to go(: I am so happy!

Sunday morning around 8am Dee and I left to San Francisco to Visit one of my best friends (Amanda) from Middle school/ High school. I am so glad we got to see her!

I love San Francisco!
We also took the opportunity to go and see the Oakland Temple! It is so beautiful:

 Finally after what seemed the longest drive ever.. We made it to the place we were staying. We didn't go to Disneyland until Monday though.

Disneyland: Monday October 15, 2012

(Not the best picture because not everyone is looking at the camera... but it was the first picture of the day)

The family... Minus Riss ):

The husband and I (:

On Splash mountain! & some of us in Tarzan's Tree House.

Happy 50th Anniversary to my amazing Grandparents! 

To end the night we went to California Pizza Kitchen with my Dad, Diana, Megan, Justin, Kayleeh, & Caydince. & We got a Pumpkin Cheese cake to goooo:

California Adventure: Tuesday October 16, 2012

Waiting to talk with Crush! (From Finding Nemo!)

Dee is going to be a good Daddy ((((: haha

We got to learn how to draw Oswald the Rabbit (Disney's original character before Mickey Mouse.)
I didn't take that many pictures that day... haha
We went to the New Port Beach temple after California Adventure that day... but we didn't get a good picture, because it was night ):

This was the only picture that looked good... but you still cannot see the whole temple. ): Oh well.

Well that is the close of our Vacation. We left the next morning at 5am (California is a hour earlier than we are so it was really 6am Utah time). We were so tired. We left that early because I had class at 2pm ... which sucked. But in the end... it is nice to finally be home (Besides school.. work.. and Homework.)