ST. GEORGE:
I love you.
Well, yesterday marked one year since I moved to St. George! I'm so so so glad I moved to St. George. It's one of those decisions where you look back & think.. "What if I had not made that decision..." If I had not decided to move to St. George.. well I do not think I would be married to my amazing Husband right now. I wouldn't be working at the place I work at now (& honestly I love love love working there) I would not have started College... I would be working 14 hour days still... I would not have gotten to see my beautiful Niece grow through out the months. I wouldn't be as close to my sister. I wouldn't get to see my grandparents and aunts and uncles and cousins as much... I wouldn't have gotten to spend 7 months with my Uncle Corey, Aunt Susan, Alex, Lindsey, or Spencer. & it truly makes me so sad to even THINK if I had not made the decision to move here. I am so thankful for all of the things that are listed. There is no doubt that moving to St. George was the best decision I ever made. Good things came from it. & I am truly blessed! (I know, there I go again saying how blessed I am... But I really truly am! & I cannot just ignore that I am!)
Fist of all... before moving here I was a little nervous. I didn't want to move to St. George. I had a job. I had some family close to me.. I had friends.. & honestly I didn't want to move somewhere, where I wasn't sure I would even find a job. I was lacking faith. But days went by and I had this strong feeling that I needed to move away from California. I wasn't happy. & I felt as if I needed something... new! Instead of the same routine every day. I kept pushing that feeling away though, because like I said, I did not want to move to St. George. But every day it kept eating at me. So my mom told me to make a pros and cons list. So I did. I realized I could have a lot of opportunities somewhere else. But still.. I was lacking faith. "What if I don't find a job" "what if I don't find a place to live" and so on. I was scared. But still I had the thought that I needed to move. So finally I opened the scriptures to 1 Nephi 17 (In the Book of Mormon) (Follow along here ----------> http://www.lds.org/scriptures/bofm/1-ne/17?lang=eng ) Basically it talks about how Nephi's family leaves everything behind to go out into the wilderness. The lord told them, that he would provide means, strengthen, & nourish them if they keep the commandments and go and do what the lord commands.
After reading that I realized they had it a lot worse than I did. They left EVERYTHING behind. & all I had to do was leave my home town.. and my job behind. & they had SO much faith. I realized that the right decision would be to move, and if I moved the lord would provide means, strengthen me, and I would be okay. So I moved. & everything fell right into place. I asked my Aunt and Uncle if I could live with them... & soon after moving here I got hired at 2 places. (I had not even lived here a month yet) & I was set up on a date with my future husband two months after I moved here. I know I made the right decision!
I also know that living with my Uncle Corey, Aunt Susan, Alex, Lindsey, and Spencer was a blessing. They mean so much to me, and I am so glad I had that opportunity to live with them. Not only because of them being so welcoming and letting me intrude on their family time... but because I got to know them even more and gain a really good relationship with all of them. I consider them my second family. I consider Alex, Lindsey, and Spencer my brothers and sister. It's hard to express how thankful I am for them, and explain how much I love them... because I cannot even begin to say the right words. No word can even begin to explain! So I guess I will just say (& hope that they will understand how I truly feel).. Thank you for everything you guys have done for me. Thank you for always being there for me! I Am truly greatful!
Also I am so thankful that I get to live closer to my older sister Megan & my brother-in-law Justin & my niece Harper. (:
Here are some pictures from the last year:
Well that's all the pictures for now. haha
My Aunt & Uncle & Cousins moved after Dee and I got married. At first it didn't seem real.. It felt like they would be back any day. But then Reality sunk in and I realized a lot has changed. (Not that it is bad change) & I would be lying if I said it has been easy not having them here.. because it hasn't been easy. I miss all of them so much. & I'm having trouble accepting that that part of my life is over now. I wish time could have moved a tiny bit slower so I could have lived in that moment longer. But this is life.. & time is not on our side. ha It moves so fast. You either live in that moment or you look back & wish you had. I'm working on not saying "I wish it was this time already" or "I wish I was older" because before I know it... those things will happen. I'm not saying I'm perfect at that yet.. but I am trying to live in the moment (:
Aww! Michelle I feel the same way about you! I love that we were able to live together even if it went by so fast. You're definitely like a sister to me. And we really did have a lot of fun adventures. Aww! I miss you!
ReplyDeleteAww! I love that we were able to live together too! Remember when you're married & have kids... We HAVE to live near each other so we can hang out while the hubbys are at work ;) haha I miss you a bunch too!! I cannot wait to see you in like two days (:
ReplyDeleteYes! We definitely need to live near each other!
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