Today I woke up either with a cold or allergies.. I do not feel well at all! I just want to lay in bed all day, but I can not do that because I'm a mom. Don't get me wrong, I love love love being a mom & I will take the bad along with the good any day because anything is worth it as long as I have my sweet healthy baby girl. But when I'm sick, those are the days (or when Elsie is sick) that I am reminded of how amazing mothers are. I am reminded of the sacrifices my mom has had to make in her life because of having 8 kids. I realize that if she could get through all the sick days, both when she was sick & when her kids were sick.. I can get through it because I only have one. Even though I'm all grown up & a mother now, I really really just want my mom. That is how you know you had a good mom- if you're sick & wishing your mom was there to comfort you. Hopefully I can be half the woman my mom is someday. She really is an amazing woman.
Sorry! Anyway, i didn't write on Monday because it was p-day & we went to Costco, picked up pizza for lunch, & went on a drive. Then Monday night I worked on uploading pictures so I could update my blog (I'm so behind!!) & then Tuesday was Dee & my wedding anniversary. We got up early to go to the temple, then Elsie & I went with Dee, after he was done working we went to dinner at Olive Garden & then it was pretty late so I basically forgot to write.
Last time I wrote it was the night that we had the tornado warning. Some updates since then: Dee & I decided that Elsie & I wouldn't go out selling with him again (unless he had an appointment that he needed us to come to), we survived the flood.. our car wasn't too damaged it just smells because the water got into it at least the engine didn't get flooded, Tuesday Dee sold 7 sets, we (the girls) walked to the library on Wednesday, Thursday Lahela & I took Elsie to baby story time at the library.. Elsie loved it. Haha she danced in the middle of the circle in front of everyone, she was probably the only super active baby there (most of the babies were around 10 months & only knew how to crawl) & she explored everything, she pushed a kid out of the way to get to the bubbles, & almost stepped on a baby (that's my girl ;) in my defense the story teller told the parents with babies that could not crawl to hold them so the adventurous toddlers didn't step on them. Not that I want Elsie to step on babies. I want Elsie to have fun & if I'm holding her back she isn't. The parents should have listened to the story teller). Also Dee sold 6 more sets. Saturday Dee sold 1 set & took Elsie & I out to dinner (Chipotle). Sunday we went to church & then we went on a Sunday drive to George Washington park.. it's supposed to be kind of like central park except it was totally flooded!! Haha at first it looked like a huge lake or river.. but then we saw trees & other things that usually aren't in lakes & realized it was flooded.
& that brings us back to this Monday, Tuesday & today.. which I've already talked about. I know a lot of the time my posts seem negative but I want to write about how we are having a good time. We really like Houston, some times there are some tough days though. They mostly are when Dee hasn't sold for awhile & for some reason I always decide to write when we are having rough days. Oops. I promise that next time I write it will be on a good/positive day(:
Man! This week went by super fast! I was going to write on Monday.. & now it is Saturday. So crazy! I guess it is easier for me to write about the negative things.. or when I'm having a bad day because I actually write when things aren't going good. When I'm totally content or having a good time apparently I don't set aside time to write. I really need to work on that. Right now I am forcing myself to write because I'm trying to write once a week.
This week has probably been one of the best weeks of summer sales so far. I know last time I wrote I was kind of in a weird mood. We were still on the boat of we-want-to-go-home-this-isn't-
Why has this week been so good? Aside from Dee selling every day.. it's because I think our attitudes changed. We stopped looking at it it as dollar signs & instead we started viewing it as something that will help families. We fasted on Sunday that Dee would be able to find families that needed this product in their lives to help strengthen their testimonies or bring them closer to our savior & our heavenly father. I started praying for Dee to have courage & confidence in himself every day this week, I've been reading my scriptures every day this week (last time I did personal scripture study was September 2014) & I've been reading an article every day in the ensign. I don't know if all of these differences have helped Dee sell more.. but what I do know is that with the Lord's help.. all things are possible!
A few other reasons why this week has been so good is because we were able to do a few fun things together. Last Sunday (June 7th) we went exploring.. we went to a state park, San Jacinto, & learned more about the war for Texas' independence. It was super cool! Then Monday we got to go back to the same state park with all the other sales guys. We got to explore & learn about the battle ship called the USS Texas. It was a very fun day! Wednesday we walked to H.E.B & made chocolate covered strawberries. I took Elsie to baby story time Thursday morning for the third time this summer. & Dee took me to the Houston ballet for a late anniversary gift. It was the best! (: & then the rest of the week went super fast. Actually the whole week just flew by! We only have 70 more days (basically 2 months) until we go home.
Overall this week was the best! Things are starting to feel normal & I think I'm slowly but surly getting into a routine.
Sometimes answers to prayers come in ways that we would least expect. Sometimes Heavenly Father teaches us lessons even though we didn't know there were lessons to be learned. Sometimes Heavenly Father knows exactly what we needed to hear or read to help humble us. Sometimes we forget that our Heavenly Father & our savior Jesus Christ love us, know what we are going through, & are a prayer away from comforting, listening &/or answering us.
Today was one of those days where I wanted to crawl back into bed & start the day over. Today was one of those days that wasn't going "my way". Today was not a good day...
Until... I prayed for forgiveness & asked the lord to help me to be a better person, read my scriptures, & read an article in the ensign.
My prayers were answered; I knew my savior, Jesus Christ, understood my struggles & "forgave" me for not being perfect; I learned a lesson I didn't think I needed to learn; & I felt humbled today. Thank you Heavenly Father for providing us with the scriptures & modern day prophets & apostles who help lead & guide us.
Dee & I are truly blessed! The living scriptures adventure is changing our lives. Although there have been numerous negative moments.. I realized that there are so many good moments.. life isn't all about the good. You have to take the good with the bad.
I am glad I was able to turn to the scriptures (because of my newly forming habit) instead of feeling sorry for myself the rest of the day..
So here is the story.. Dee won a ticket to see the new Jurassic park movie because his team had their best week yet. Anyway, somehow we convinced ourselves that Elsie "might" be good during the movie. Long story short.. no she wasn't content with just sitting in a dark movie theater. Which was totally fine. I was fine with walking the halls with Elsie & enjoying her high pitched screams & giggles when she thought she was doing something cool or when she discovered something new. I loved it. I really did. The part I didn't love was when she had enough & ended up throwing a temper tantrum because she couldn't play in a fountain. That is when I had it! I was so mad. Everyone was staring at us.. probably thinking "why can't she control her kid" blah blah blah. & I could feel the tears forming in my eyes because this was the umpteenth time I missed out on something I wanted to do but had to think of someone else before my own wants. I felt more tears coming because I felt bad for all the things I probably made my mom miss out on growing up. Then I felt more tears coming because I was mad at myself for being selfish. & then more tears forming because I new deep down that Elsie probably wasn't going to last during the movie.. & it was my own fault that I was feeling sorry for myself.
When Dee & everyone else came out of the movie (finally) I wanted to go home & eat a tub of ice cream (I don't know about any of you other moms.. but when I've had a long day all I want is some chocolate at the end of the day to help me forget the hard parts). & feel sorry for myself & not come out of my room.
We got home & then all the guys got ready to leave for the rest of the day. After Dee left I was in a terrible mood. I started cleaning everything (when I'm in any mood that is very strong.. like I'm excited, angry, anxious, etc. I clean). Finally I couldn't take it anymore. That is why I prayed. I needed to change my day around, I needed to calm myself, stop feeling sorry for myself, & I felt like I wasn't being a good mom to Elsie because I was mad at her for throwing a tantrum.
I know I'm hard on myself though. It is very hard being a mom. It really is a selfless, hard, rewarding & life changing job there is.
Anyway... It's midnight so I better go to sleep.
P.S. Lahela makes the best Navajo tacos! & we seem to make Tacos every time there is an "emergency" warning. Oh & Dee sold 4 sets tonight(:
Saturday, June 27, 2015:
This week has been a hard week. It started off pretty good. We took Elsie to the park.. & she had a blast! There was a slash pad there (we had no idea before we got there) so we striped her down to nothing but her diaper, & she had the time of her life running around in the water. I wish we lived next to that park so she could go every day.
Most days I go a bit stir crazy because like I've stated before we live in the ghetto.. at least that is how I feel.. there are no parks close enough to walk to, and I don't have a car. So we are pretty limited as to what we can do.
Thursday is probably my favorite day (besides Sunday & Monday of course) because we get to go to the library & Elsie gets to go to baby story time. Other than that Tuesday, Wednesday, Friday & Saturday we are stuck at home.. confined to our rooms.. going a bit crazy.
Today I pretty much cleaned everything. I cleaned the bathroom, we organized and cleaned out the refrigerator, did the dishes, cleared off the counters, etc. We clean when we have nothing to do.. & to stay busy.
Anyway.. this week has been hard. Dee only sold 5 sets (after having some awesome week's.. ahem 27 sets one week & 16 last week) & it is hard when you're not selling. But what is different about this week.. compared to the other hard week's we have had, is that I know we will get out of this funk, I know the lord with provide, strengthen, & nourish us because we are doing what is right. Just because Dee has one bad week does not mean the next 7 or 8 weeks we have left will be "hard" weeks. Dee can do this & people do want this product.
Here's to a better week next week! I have complete faith & confidence in Dee. He can & will sell more sets than he did this week.
This week has been a hard week. It started off pretty good. We took Elsie to the park.. & she had a blast! There was a slash pad there (we had no idea before we got there) so we striped her down to nothing but her diaper, & she had the time of her life running around in the water. I wish we lived next to that park so she could go every day.
Most days I go a bit stir crazy because like I've stated before we live in the ghetto.. at least that is how I feel.. there are no parks close enough to walk to, and I don't have a car. So we are pretty limited as to what we can do.
Thursday is probably my favorite day (besides Sunday & Monday of course) because we get to go to the library & Elsie gets to go to baby story time. Other than that Tuesday, Wednesday, Friday & Saturday we are stuck at home.. confined to our rooms.. going a bit crazy.
Today I pretty much cleaned everything. I cleaned the bathroom, we organized and cleaned out the refrigerator, did the dishes, cleared off the counters, etc. We clean when we have nothing to do.. & to stay busy.
Anyway.. this week has been hard. Dee only sold 5 sets (after having some awesome week's.. ahem 27 sets one week & 16 last week) & it is hard when you're not selling. But what is different about this week.. compared to the other hard week's we have had, is that I know we will get out of this funk, I know the lord with provide, strengthen, & nourish us because we are doing what is right. Just because Dee has one bad week does not mean the next 7 or 8 weeks we have left will be "hard" weeks. Dee can do this & people do want this product.
Here's to a better week next week! I have complete faith & confidence in Dee. He can & will sell more sets than he did this week.
That's all for now!
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