Monday, March 3, 2014:
We got to take our little cutie home on Friday afternoon. After being home for a little while Elsie was asleep so I had Dee go to pick up my pain med prescriptions. After he left Elsie woke up! It was my first time alone with her! At the hospital she didn't room with us because she was in the NICU.. so the nurses took care of her! It was scary! Being alone with her.. Yes some "motherly instincts" just come to you.. but there is no baby hand book written for each child. I think I made myself believe I was ready to be a parent.. but honestly, no one is ready! It's probably the hardest thing to do! I know I've only been a parent for a couple of days, but still...it's hard & definitely teaches you to be patient!! Anyway so after Dee left, Elsie woke up. I had to feed her all by myself (I know that sounds weird since I breastfeed her.. but she fights me every time we try!! So I usually had a nurse & Dee supporting me/ helping me out!) It was frustrating. Dee was gone almost 2 hours because my prescription took 45 minutes to be done and he ran a couple of other errands...Since my mom wasn't going to be here until Sunday afternoon I realized there was no way I could handle taking care of her all day by myself so I asked Dee to try to get work off. Luckily he was one step ahead of me & already had someone who would cover for him!!
That night was torture, people warn you before you have a baby that you better get sleep before the baby comes.. or "hope you don't like sleep" & things like that. & although you obviously believe them, you really don't understand until you actually have a baby. Just like before you get married people try to warn you that it isn't easy or whatever.. but you don't realize they're right until you're actually married.. Yeah well I wasn't really expecting to not get any sleep. I slept 15 minutes here & there.. I was exhausted! Yes it was partially my fault because every noise she made I made sure I picked her up. Good thing we had Dee's mom come over Saturday afternoon.. I was able to get a hour nap in! I never thought a one hour nap would feel so good!!
We got to take our little cutie home on Friday afternoon. After being home for a little while Elsie was asleep so I had Dee go to pick up my pain med prescriptions. After he left Elsie woke up! It was my first time alone with her! At the hospital she didn't room with us because she was in the NICU.. so the nurses took care of her! It was scary! Being alone with her.. Yes some "motherly instincts" just come to you.. but there is no baby hand book written for each child. I think I made myself believe I was ready to be a parent.. but honestly, no one is ready! It's probably the hardest thing to do! I know I've only been a parent for a couple of days, but still...it's hard & definitely teaches you to be patient!! Anyway so after Dee left, Elsie woke up. I had to feed her all by myself (I know that sounds weird since I breastfeed her.. but she fights me every time we try!! So I usually had a nurse & Dee supporting me/ helping me out!) It was frustrating. Dee was gone almost 2 hours because my prescription took 45 minutes to be done and he ran a couple of other errands...Since my mom wasn't going to be here until Sunday afternoon I realized there was no way I could handle taking care of her all day by myself so I asked Dee to try to get work off. Luckily he was one step ahead of me & already had someone who would cover for him!!
(That's the face she does when she is trying to break out of being swaddled! It's the cutest thing!)
Elsie is a smiley baby!
Friday, March 7, 2014:
Sorry I didn't get to finish writing on Monday.. It's hard finding time to do anything. If she is sleeping I should be sleeping.. or I feel like I need to be doing the dishes, or laundry or eating.. or checking FB /: stupid Facebook.. Anyway, I'm going to try & stay short & simple so I can fill everything in that has happened in the last week.
After Dee's Mom left my Aunt Susan, Uncle Corey, & Lindsey came over. My aunt (She is a nurse) taught me how to swaddle a baby properly!! So Saturday night Elsie actually slept a total of 5 hours at night! It was amazing! Then Sunday my mom came into town. It is nice knowing that I had another person besides Dee that could help me if I felt like I couldn't handle it anymore. It has been a very emotional week. Sometimes I just start crying for no reason. I love Elsie & I cannot imagine not having her in my life anymore.. But she is hard work! Dee told me Monday night to never say I don't do anything, because the 1 hour he watched her (my mom & I went grocery shopping) he realized how tough it was taking care of her. Let's just say it was a really nice thing to hear.. you know because of it being an emotional week. Anyway everyday has been an adventure.. there has not really been a routine.. sometimes she sleeps good at night.. sometimes she does not. Sometimes she sleeps for 4 or 5 hours straight during the day (at first it scared me.. but now I realize I need to get her to somehow switch her 4 or 5 hour nap to be at night instead of the afternoon).
Monday March 3 we gave her her first bath.. we meaning I made my mom do it. I don't want to be the cause of her crying ):
It doesn't look like it.. but she hated having a bath!
But she loved when I rubbed lotion on her!
(We were trying to get a picture of Harper kissing Elsie's head.. but every time she would do it, we were too late & she wouldn't do it again.. so this was as good as I could get)
(These pictures weren't taken on Thursday though.. I don't think we took a picture of both grandmas together..)
I am so glad it is Spring break!! My mom left Early Sunday morning.. & yesterday was a really really rough day! If Dee wasn't on Spring break I think I would cry & this week would be so hard!! Elsie didn't sleep at all Saturday night. She was super fussy! & would not let me put her down. Saturday night I ate some chocolate I never had before & I thought maybe that was why she was so fussy. I thought maybe the chocolate bothered her.. she was spitting up more & that made the most sense.. Until Sunday during the day when I went to change her I noticed she had a really sore red bum! poor Elsie ): She was in a lot of pain! She wouldn't sleep at all on Sunday. So I didn't sleep at all Saturday night or get a nap at all on Sunday! It was horrible. Mostly I felt bad for my cutie. Luckily her sore bum is starting to look WAYYY better! We changed the brand of diaper she was wearing back to huggies.. started hosing her down with water instead of using wipes & we used Vaseline instead of that stupid butt paste we were using.. That stuff does not work!! plus she is sleeping better today! & I got 5.5 hours of sleep last night.. 5.5 hour straight! not total! 5.5 hours in a row! All together I got 7 hours of sleep last night!! It was seriously amazing! It was only because she was up all night Saturday night & up all day during the day on Sunday! My poor innocent baby! It makes me want to cry when she is in pain.. Actually I do cry when she is in pain!
Wednesday, March 12, 2014:
Today Elsie is 2 weeks old!! I cannot believe it! It feels like I just woke up to contractions yesterday.. but no it's been 2 weeks! Time is going way to fast! I feel like every year goes faster & faster.. & every milestone, such as graduating high school, getting married, having kids, graduating college, & so on makes time go 2 times faster! I want Elsie to be a newborn forever.. well actually that is not true.. Sometimes I wish she was older just because she is kind of hard to take care of.. She is super demanding! haha.. but most the time (when things seem to be going pretty smoothly) I wish I could freeze time & live in this moment forever! But the inevitable is going to happen, my baby is going to grow up! ):
Yesterday was one of the rough days.. I'm pretty sure Elsie had a tummy ache ): I think when I eat chocolate it upsets her tummy ( I know earlier I wrote that it wasn't the chocolate, it was just her sore bum.. well I'm pretty sure it was a mixture of both that's why she was in so much pain!).. I guess no mini Cadbury eggs for me this Easter season ): oh well I don't like seeing my sweet little innocent baby suffering & not understanding why she is in pain. It breaks my heart! I'm not exactly sure if it's ALL chocolate.. because I've been eating chocolate (a lot actually) since day one of her life.. But the other day I bought some new chocolate I've never had before & that's the only new thing I added to my diet, so that's why I think it's chocolate that made her tummy upset.. I wonder if one kind of brand of chocolate could affect her.. & another brand of chocolate could not affect her at all? I'm scared to test out my theory though.. rough days are not fun! All she wants is to be held all day! She barely naps & it's just hard!
I tested out my theory last night.. on accident! Ha! I proved that it's just that brand of chocolate that makes her sick! Because she hasn't been fussy or super super needy, & she doesn't have that "I'm in pain" look on her face! Yay! I can still eat chocolate. I will just have to stay away from that brand of chocolate that makes her sick!! It's been 24 hours since I ate the chocolate so I know it's not all chocolate that affects her!! Anyway, today was a good day!
She totally looks like Dee right here! (:
Friday, March 14, 2014:
I am NEVER eating chocolate AGAIN!! ugh! Last night was horrible. Yeah I made it past the "24 hour mark" but apparently that website that I read that food can affect your milk within 4-24 hours.. was seriously wrong! Elsie wasn't as bad last night as she was when I had that other brand of chocolate.. obviously since it didn't hit her until later. It just makes her gassy.. & she will spit up a lot. I'm not going to eat chocolate for 2 weeks now to double check if that is what is causing her to be so clingy & sick. I didn't sleep at all last night!! She refused to be put down. She would only sleep if I was holding her! Motherhood is hard work! I wanted to cry this morning.. but luckily Elsie FINALLY took a nap in her own bed starting at 1pm & it's 4:15 right now & she is still sleeping. So I got a 3.5 hour nap! (she slept from 11am-12pm but I was holding her when we slept.. so if I don't include that I only got 2.5 hours in a row of sleep). I didn't continue to sleep because I haven't eaten since 10am.. So I had to get up so I could eat /: I hope she starts feeling better! I just realized that when I was pregnant I couldn't eat chocolate until I was in the third trimester.. the smell of it (like cake, & brownies & things like that) would make me sick.. & the thought of any chocolate didnt sound very good.. I wonder if that has anything to do with it..? Oh! & for the last 5 weeks of my pregnancy I got horrible horrible heartburn if I ate it... So I'm kind of sad that chocolate is making her sick.. I haven't really been able to eat it for awhile without it causing sickness.. or pain!! oh well it is what it is.. I just hope she will start feeling better.. poor baby girl!
& Finally.. her taking a long nap!
That's all for now!
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