Sunday, June 29, 2014

Little Cutie Baby! (#4)

Dee & I have made up songs to sing to Elsie because 1. We only know half the words to a lullaby, 2. We cannot remember any lullabies at the time, or 3. Maybe we just like making up songs? One of the songs is "Little baby Elsie, little cutie baby, little sweetie baby..." blah blah blah. (She smiles when I sing it to her so don't judge). Hence the title "Little Cutie Baby" Also ever since Elsie was born we have called her "little cutie" & Harper (our niece) started the "baby Elsie" So that is where the "little baby Elsie" came from.. just combining the two things. (:

Anyway....

 Time for some baby updates!
She sucks her thumb. It is so cute!!
She rolls over like a pro now.. back to belly then belly to back! She started this the beginning of June.. (4th)
She insists on rolling over when i change her diaper.
She talks to herself
Still gets frustrated easily
She reaches for everything she sees.
When I'm trying to burp her after she eats, she straightens her arms so she can look at the burp cloth. (She ends up going cross-eyed) Then she grabs it & starts talking to it & puts it into her mouth. So cute!!
Still wearing size 2 diapers.
She wears some 3-6 month clothing.. but can still fit into a lot of 0-3 month clothing. She is kind of in between.
She gets her 4 month shots on Monday June 30. Not looking forward to that AT ALL!!
Still loves bath time.
Hates getting rubbed with lotion. ):
Still only takes a bottle from me or Dee.
She loves when I read to her. She tries to grab the book, then she starts talking to it, & the whole time she hits the book with her hands.
She can pinch.. & let me tell you, it hurts!!
She loves peek-a-boo! She smiles everytime! & sometimes she laughs!
She loves sleeping in our bed. (I've made the mistake of letting her nap in our bed during the day) She sleeps longer when she is in our bed, & quite frankly I do not blame her! Our bed is seriously heaven. & her pack n play honestly does not look comfortable.
She laughs when we "eat" her bare belly or "eat" her fingers.
She throws fits when things aren't going how she wants them to go.. she throws her head back, cries, & makes her body as straight as a board. (Its really frustrating!!)
She likes the sound of her nails scratching things.
She thinks she can look around while she is eating then gets mad because she wants to eat & look around at the same time. Its just not possible!
She can sit supported now.
She laughs!!
She kind of reaches for us
I think she is starting to know her name. I said Elsie three times & each time she looked up at me, but it could have been a coincident?
Sometimes when she wakes up from a nap or in the morning she will play in her crib. Meaning she rolls around, does 180s, "talks" REALLY loud, plays with her blue monkey (the first toy we bought her before we even knew she was going to be a girl), & sucks on her hands. It is definitely cute!
Her eyebrows turn red when she is sleepy (this isn't new.. I just forgot to mention it in past blog updates about Elsie)
She can be a real big crankster if she is sleepy. I thought trying to get her to breastfeed & fighting her everytime the first week she was born was hard... I was so wrong. Trying to fight a cranky, active, rolling over, strong baby is WAY harder to try to get them to eat. Just sayin.
She sleeps on her belly or side now. She rolls over in her sleep once I set her in her crib.
She is teething. ):
She is always moving.. even in her sleep!! She has been doing this since she was born though.
She laughs in her sleep! (:
She can sit supported now.
When she sees something new, she looks at me (after she touches it) like she is asking "what is this" it is so sweet. I love when she does that!
Last week she weighed around 16 lbs
Thursday June 5, 2014:
Sometimes it is way too hard to be a mom & sometimes I feel like quitting. I just wish Elsie would go to sleep at the same time EVERY night. I mean like between 8:30-9:30 or between 9-10. Or whatever. But no. It always varies. Like between 9pm-12am. (12am is very rare by the way she usually falls asleep for the night before 11:30). Sometimes I wish I could just finish what I'm doing.. or lay around & read or do something for myself.. or just relax. Or lock myself in my room & never come out. Sometimes I just feel like crying.

Then I feel bad. I feel like I'm a horrible person for wishing that because I absolutely love Elsie more than anything! (Besides Dee & other family members) I wouldn't trade her for anything. I love watching her learn & grow & I love her cute little chubby cheeks. I love her cute little smile. It makes me feel like I'm doing everything right. It makes me feel like she knows Dee & I love her. I really do love her. & I really do love my job. But just like any job there are days where you wish you didn't have to go in. You wish you could call in sick & read all day instead. Days where you want to leave work early.. or just take a dang break! & tonight is definitely one of those days! 
Monday, June 9, 2014:
Okay, I do not know how I got so lucky to have Elsie in my life! Heavenly Father definitely sent us an angel! She is perfect! She is everything to us! & she is one of the best things that ever happened to me. I love watching her learn. I love seeing a world through her eyes. She is SO pure! She is so innocent! I love her!! Recently she has started to reach for things & explore them. Last night she was looking at the shower curtain before her bath. I went to set her in the bath & realized she had gotten a hold of the curtain & started "talking" to it. That's her new thing! Reaching for things & once she has it in her hands she starts "talking" to it then it goes straight to her mouth. I'm going to miss this when she is older. I keep getting anxious with how fast time is going by. I want to take all of this in! I don't want to miss any thing! I don't want to forget! I don't want time to do fast! She is growing up! She rolls over now. (Since June 4th). & she does it any chance she gets! Even when she is in our arms. She is learning so fast! & in a couple weeks she will be 4 months! I don't want her to grow up!


Friday, June 13, 2014:
I hate rough days. Elsie keeps screaming at me!! I can't seem to do anything right today. If I put her down she rolls over gets stuck & starts crying. If I try to eat she screams at me. If I sit down she screams at me. If I don't rock her the right way she screams at me . If I pretty much do ANYTHING, she screams at me. She sure is cranky! She usually does this when she is tired. But today just feels more rough than usual... Good thing its date night tonight... We are leaving her with Dee's mom longer than we have ever left her with anyone before. I'm a little anxious, but it needs to happen!

Continued from June 13, 2014:
Okay Elsie just fell asleep.. she looks so innocent when she is sleeping. I feel like I've become bipolar because now I just want to snuggle/cuddle with her all day & forget about everything I have to do. She is so cute. & how did she gets so big?? How is it that she is already 15 weeks?? & She will be four months in about 2 weeks. I don't want her to grow up! Time? Please slow down! ):

Saturday, June 14, 2014:
I always hate when I have to do something between 12-3 because that's usually when Elsie will take a hour nap..  & if I'm lucky a 2 hour nap! & if I'm really really lucky a 2.5 hour nap. Today a nap longer than 30 minutes would have been really really nice. Mainly because I have a HUGE headache that does not want to go away.. & because I don't have any chores to do today so it would have been nice to read. Oh well! It is what it is! 


Monday, June 16, 2014:
Elsie can sit supported now. I think she wants to sit by herself so badly. When we lay her on her back she lifts her head & legs up like she is trying to get up.. kind of like a bug that gets stuck on it's back. OH!
Last night Elsie was laughing at me. It was so cute. She was in the bath tub & she looked at me & reached her cute little baby hand out at me & started smiling at me. Then she started laughing. Awww(: She laughs a lot now. This is really recent.
 Wednesday, June 18, 2014:
Sometimes I forget about everything I have to do & just lay in bed with my baby. I even find myself just staring at her for hours. Mostly wondering how I got so lucky to have this wonderful little spirit. I also find myself wondering how she got so big! Wasn't she just born yesterday?? & I find myself falling more & more in love with her every day. (Didn't think it was possible to love her anymore than I already do). She is so beautiful! I love watching her learn. I love hearing that laugh! I love hearing her loud voice! I love when she rolls over half way so she is on her side looking into my eyes & then seeing her cute smile!! She knows I love her. & she loves me. I love being a mom!! I love when her little baby hands grabs my face followed by a big smile & cute laughs! I love watching her! I think its because I'm afraid if I blink an eye.. she will all of a sudden be 10. I'm going to miss this. Its going too fast!!

 Friday, June 20, 2014:
Sometimes I think about how I want more kids.. especially on the days Elsie is being so sweet & cute.. & when I watch her sleep or eat. Or when she laughs at me or smiles. & just looking at her cute perfect round face... But right now is not one of those times I think about having more. This is one of those moments where I don't want anymore kids because I've just about had it. I cannot get Elsie to go to sleep! I know she is sleepy because she is so cranky! She keeps screaming & crying. I have to keep praying to have patients, understanding, & a miracle of strength to get though this. It's 15 minutes past midnight & still no luck. Luckily Dee & I started to take turns rocking her for the last 30 minutes. He then got the brilliant idea of "maybe she is too hot" that seems to be the reason she was throwing a fit. She is starting to get drowsy & Dee is currently trying to rock her to sleep. Ahh! Life of a mom... Life of a parent is SO hard! Ahh.. she is sleeping. It's 12:20! Please please please please stay asleep!! I'm beyond tired.

Oh & on a positive note, Elsie found her toes/feet tonight. & just this past Tuesday Elsie started watching me eat food. Her eyes would look at my plate of food then at my month where the fork full of food was going. She might start showing interest sooner than later!
Saturday, June 21, 2014:
The last couple of nights have not been fun. The first night Elsie only slept 4 hours straight.. she barely napped during the day as well. Last night she only slept 5 hours straight. Elsie is teething... No I haven't seen a tooth yet, but all the signs/symptoms are definitely there. She is super whiney. She has been crying a lot. She is restless. She won't sleep. She has been gnawing on EVERYTHING. poor little baby! ): I was reading about teething yesterday & it said it can take up to 3 months for the tooth to finally come in /: I haven't seen a tooth yet.. so we will see. Hopefully it comes sooner rather than later. This isn't fun for Elsie.. or mama. We brought her back to our room. It is just way too hard getting up every second to go into her room to get her at night. No she isn't actually in our bed. Still in her own bed but in our room now. I decided to give her Tylenol last night to help her sleep..  it most certainly did not help. ): I don't really know how to help her sleep better. I can't give her teething tablets until I talk to her doctor because it said if she is still nursing ask a doctor before use. Poor Elsie ): she has been so cranky lately. Now I know why!! & now the no sleep thing is making it even worse ):  let me just say one thing... I am so grateful for my hubby Dee. He helps me out so much! I wouldn't be able to do this without him! 



Thursday, June 26, 2014: 
Sorry I've been MIA lately. It has just been one of those weeks! Elsie's tooth still hasn't come in yet. I mean I think it's finally trying to cut through when I looked this morning. BLAH! Elsie didn't sleep at all last night. I feel like I went back in time to when Elsie was first born & she would only sleep 30 minutes at a time. She was so tired though. She had her eyes closed like she was asleep.. but she would be crying & whining while I held her & rubbed her back. (If I put her down she would scream bloody murder). poor Elsie. She is finally sleeping.. I think because I finally gave her some teething tablets. Those things seem to help! Why didn't anyone mention that teething was HORRIBLE?? I mean I knew it would probably suck... but I didn't think it would be this bad. ): plus why did she decide to get teeth at 4 months? couldn't she have waited until she was 1? haha I'm joking of course. I cannot believe Elsie is four months today!! Time is seriously going too fast.

That's all for now!


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